As You

Believe me yours
I’ll oblige
till you find the words
loves extracted
from time

I warned
it wasn’t me
well meaning well
that only grants
a place to wish

Oughta

If I’m happy
I don’t know it

Leftover thought
from self-rediscovery

Reasonable doubt
set me free

Jury of my years
gave me life

The curtain rises
clap your hands

A lapse in character
followed by judgement
feeling I won’t admit to
feeling so familiar

Each smile
a brief betrayal
practiced indifference
rendered impractical

In the face of love
I can’t find myself
when I look at her
she’s all I see

There must be more
I want more me
ready as I am
to be found

If I wanted it to end like this
it would end
a truth obvious and unpleasant
and all alone

To love you
a selfishness indulged at length
to leave you
a selfishness indulged in brief

Were I capable of conclusions
I would draw one
from the endings I know already
those bleak words

Lucky for us
my memory isn’t all that
lucky for me
the forgetting is mutual

Peeling back kisses
like skin saturated with sun
given time to set
history with edge translucent

To remove is to relive
to relive is to relove
to find what I’m willing
to forget for you

Easy at first
when infatuation drives fingers
replacements made room for
as lust requires

It’s the afterwards that’s of interest
the spaces once saved
now negotiable
ready perhaps for the sun

Collector of lonelies
incapable of being alone
tonight
will be missed
tomorrow
with all the rest
yesterdays
and yesteryous

Got enough empty
for us
self sieved
space
to be sown
constellations
we can forget
together

Guilt
dappled now
with practiced shrug
to sit it right

Your princess
in another castle
my coffee cup waits
daily

To sell salvation
with words you’re fed
virtue
without meaning

I’ll sleep just fine
tonight
belly full
from found delicacy